Beki's Blog

My life and the journey to self-awareness

Picking myself up

This was not a good week for me. I started down a slippery slope on my birthday. I put a stop to it yesterday. Enough is enough already!

I started the Spring Fling challenge on 2/23/10. The challenge is 8 weeks long and I set a goal to lose 8 pounds. Right now, it’s not looking like I’m going to reach that goal, but don’t think I’m gonna stop trying!

Starting weight:        144.6

Last week’s weight:        141.6

This week’s weight:        142.6

Gain for the week:        + 1.0 lbs

Total loss for the challenge:    2.0 lbs

Total lost since 11/1/09:    15.2 lbs!

Here’s the excuses reasons for my bad week:

  • I have started studying for finals and am so stressed out about them that I don’t have time to work out. Unless you have gone through law school, I’m not sure I can explain finals (and the accompanying stress). There is no homework in law school. My entire grade for the entire year is dependent on this one exam. I have to cram all the law and crazy rules in my brain for 3 very difficult classes. Each exam consists of 2-3 fact patterns (of crazy convoluted facts created by sadistic professors). You have to spot the issues and explain the law and resolve the issue. Each question takes about an hour to answer. If I don’t pass, I have to retake the entire year long course. Very stressful. Now, I should state that I currently hold cum laude status (high honors) and have never failed a course. However, these 3 classes seem to be more difficult than any others I’ve taken. Exams are always stressful, but these seem more so than previous ones. I am sooo ready for April 22nd! (My last exam is 4/21)
  • I got sick. I had a sore throat, achy ear and cough. I slept the better part of the weekend. I drank several hot chocolate and brandys… soo yummy – but soo many calories…
  • I got discouraged. I ate candy bars and McDonalds. I don’t think I cooked any healthy meals. I ate late at night. But as noted below, I blogged and retook control!


  • I blogged. I didn’t completely isolate myself and go into despair. Blogging is really helping me work through my issues and is keeping me grounded in reality. It also helps when I get comments from friends, virtual friends, or even people I’ve never had contact with. Proves to me I am not alone. It’s amazing how being supported with positivity (even from people I’ve never met) lifts me up.
  • I retook control on Tuesday. I worked out for a total of 35 minutes. I didn’t follow my triathlon training program – but I ran on the treadmill. I ran 6mph for 15 minutes (1.48 miles). I’ve never run on the treadmill at that speed for that long. I jumped rope for 5 minutes and did the elliptical for 15 minutes. These were split up throughout the day, but it was a great way to clear my head during all this intensive studying.
    • I ate:
      • 1589 calories, burned 357 = net calories 1232
      • Fat = 34 grams (19%)
      • Carbs = 168 grams (42%)
      • Protein = 149 grams (38%)
  • I made a super yummy turkey chili in the crock pot Tuesday night. Only 372 calories per bowl and very filling!
  • I set a goal to run 250 miles by the end of 2010. I have run 93 miles by 3/31. To meet my goal I need to run about 17.5 miles per month. No sweat! (Well, there will be sweat, but I can totally reach this goal!) However, if I keep at the pace I set in the 1st quarter of 2010, I’m on track to run almost 400 miles by the end of the year!


  • I didn’t track all week. Well, one day this week – yesterday.
  • I ate Lucky Charms and Cocoa Pepples. I didn’t weigh them out. Just poured big bowls of them.
  • Monday I grazed on crap all day. I don’t think (other than the sugar cereal) that I actually ate a real meal all day.
  • I drank several hot chocolates with brandy. On multiple days…
  • I didn’t work out all week. I was supposed to do a 7 mile training run on Saturday and a 25-30 mile bike ride on Sunday. But I didn’t do those or any other workouts.

I noticed that I ate better yesterday and I felt better. I ate terrible over the previous six days and I felt like shit. (above just being sick). I need to remember that feeling.

This coming week, I will have my first final. Also, my first sprint triathlon is in 11 days. OMG. Too. Many. Things. To. Stress. About. Head. Gonna. Explode… With the exception of never having swam in my wetsuit or in open water, I am ready for the sprint triathlon. That being said, I do have a ½ ironman distance triathlon in July. However, I have given myself permission to veer from the training program until after finals. That is not permission to be a lazy bum. I will work in cardio during study breaks. I promise.

Here’s what I will commit to this week:

  • Get in my 7 mile training run
  • Make time to do my first open water swim
  • Get in cardio during study breaks
  • Drink 64oz water each day
  • Track and stay within my calorie target
  • No food after 9:00pm (9:30 if I have class until 9pm)

April 7, 2010 - Posted by | Law School, Me, Shrinking Jeans, triathlon, Weight Loss | , , , , ,


  1. I sure do love you posting your blogs. You know Bekki yours is the ONLY blog I read and I am suppose to be reading more for work. I really enjoy your stories and how you feel and I know you will make your goal. With this blogging your son and your boyfriend you will hit it honey! Your determination will be the final thing that carries you through the end.

    Take care and vodka soda has less calories!!!! xoxox


    Comment by Tiffanie Kowalski | April 7, 2010 | Reply

  2. Hey Beki! Great post. I really love your blog, beautiful picture of you on the sidebar.

    I am so excited to hear that you want to make these significant changes. It sounds like you’ve been making so many incredible, positive changes in your life recently. You are an inspiration. 🙂

    I wanted you to know that I lost 70 pounds a few years ago. One of the things that helped me the most was keeping my eye on the prize — and asking questions constantly. I always had to ask myself WHY I was doing things. Why was I reaching for a can of coke instead of a glass of water? The answer was usually convenience/taste. When I weighed the outcome (fat or healthy) (soda or water) — the healthy choice always won out.

    Hopefully this little tip will be of some help to you as you embark on this new journey. I’m cheering for you!

    Comment by Dena | April 7, 2010 | Reply

  3. We all have tough weeks. I can only imagine how difficult law school is. You will get your head back into the game and come back stronger then ever.

    Comment by Tirah | April 7, 2010 | Reply

  4. First of all, let me just tell you that you are AMAZING. Seriously. With all that you have on your plate, your dedication to yourself is inspiring.

    Congrats on getting back on the healthy wagon yesterday, too. It’s amazing how much better we feel when we treat our bodies right.

    You’re going to do great on your finals! I just know you will. Your sprint-tri is going to be awesome, too! YOU CAN DO IT! All of it!!!

    Comment by Christy M. | April 7, 2010 | Reply

  5. another triathlete – how cool!! you know we expect a full race report afterward right?

    i could have written any part of this blog. well except the law school part. life is hard and stressful – the part that makes us super women is that we over come all the obstacles!

    good for you for taking back control and not giving yourself an excuse to continue.

    Comment by Brooke | April 7, 2010 | Reply

  6. I don’t know how to put into words how much it means that people read my blog! You are all so positive and supportive and it inspires me to do better!

    Tiffanie – I can recommend other amazing personal blogs if you want – or go to and you will find a plethora of amazing women and blogs!

    It’s hard for me to believe that I am inspiring to others, but I’m going to keep on trying to be better and keep on blogging about my successes and stumbles!

    Oh and full race reports will be posted! LOL I might even have a friend tweet during the race on my twitter account… of course, I need to ask her first… haha

    Thank you again!

    Comment by bekkib73 | April 7, 2010 | Reply

  7. I love this post. You sound like you’ve got your head round what you need to do. And that is awesome, truly.
    Can’t wait to see your results next week!

    Comment by Heather@ShrinkingJeans | April 7, 2010 | Reply

  8. Okay, wait a second…hot chocolate and brandy? Like together? Why have I never heard of this? K, let me keep reading. BRB…

    Okay, I’m back…Lucky Charms and Cocoa Pebbles? OMG, you’re killing me…okay, BRB…

    Now, I’m back for good. Okay…I SO know what you’re going through with stress. Life is one big ball of stress for me right now and something has had to give. Except giving into something stresses me out. But it looks to me like you’re handling is SO WELL. I have faith that you’re going to do just fine-no AMAZING!

    Good luck and have a great week!

    Comment by April | April 7, 2010 | Reply

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