Beki's Blog

My life and the journey to self-awareness

Leaving the land of eternal funk

I am tired of complaining. I am tired of writing about being unfocused. And if I’m tired of it, I’m guessing you all must be ten times more tired of reading about it.

I had a very eventful (read stressful) April. I completed my first sprint triathlon and finished my 3rd year law school finals. Since then, I’ve been just twisting in the wind. I’ve got no focus, no direction. And let me tell you, my Itty Bitty Shitty Committee has staged a successful coup, and are almost incessantly and very loudly screaming. Drowning out any glimmer of motivation and positively I try and hold on to. Continue reading


May 26, 2010 Posted by | Fitness Challenge, Me, Shrinking Jeans, Weight Loss | , , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Judgment Free Zone

Last year I got counseling from a relationship coach, named Jeanine Kaiser (an amazing woman who helped me tremendously, and I love her so much for all her help!), who worked with me in identifying what she called, the Itty Bitty Shitty Committee. Mine has gotten out of control in the last few months. What is the Itty Bitty Shitty Committee, you ask? It is the part of your brain that repeats negative ideas, concepts and affirmations, which serve no purpose other than to bring yourself down. It’s utterly useless. It’s self judgment in the most negative fashion. Continue reading

October 21, 2009 Posted by | Me, Relationships, Weight Loss | , , , | 1 Comment